Next week will be quarter end in my company's financial calendar. I can foresee difficult hours and days ahead of me. Even now, I'm starting to feel the intense stress and pressure that will soon hit me in just a couple days time.
It's almost 3 months now that I am in this new job and frankly I am still unable to stand on my own feet. Almost every other day, I will do silly mistakes or asked dumb and silly questions. Day by day, my self-confidence gets lower and lower. Certain days, I would just stared at my laptop screen with an empty mind. My brain just went dead and my whole body felt like paralyzed. Sign of nervous breakdown, I suppose......
Lately i have been asking myself this question - how long can I stay in this role? How far more will I allow myself to over stretch my limit? it is now 3 months in this job and I'm already considering to turn in my resignation letter and end this misery once and for all. But then, how would I know if the next job will not be worse than this one. At least for now, I have great colleagues and a manager who have full confident in whatever I do.
*yawnnnnnn*
Oh well, let's see how far I can stretched myself....I'm gonna sleep now....
Wish me luck....
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