It has been raining almost every day lately, but still we have insufficient water issue. Majority of the household within Klang valley are going thru "water rationing" exercise where we will have water supply for 2 days and the next 2 days without water....it made me wonder, how can there be insufficient water when the rain is pouring almost everyday for the past 2 weeks.... Pathetic right....
Oh well...I tend to be a bit emotional when it's raining. I'm not sure it's because of the gloominess of the sky that affects my mood or it's just purely me.... Anyways I decided to pen down some thoughts in my little blog which I have abandoned for a quite a "while".
A quick tour down memory lane, 3 major events happened from where I left out in my last post back in 2013:
When I stepped into 2014, I told myself that I will try my best to make this year a good year for me. Well, for a start, I'm pretty happy with my new car and the fuel consumption. Instead of paying RM 80+ every week, I'm now paying RM 80 for every 2 weeks. *smiling*- I managed to sell off my previous car and got a new hybrid car
- I quit my job after having a huge fight with my ex manager and decided to join back to my previous company
- I took up piano lesson right after Chinese New Year and got myself a digital piano to practice
I'm also pretty proud of myself for having the courage to move my first step out of my comfort zone and signed up for piano classes. Within 2 months, I'm able to read basic musical notes and play simple song like "Jingle Bell"....with 2 hands.... Yay to myself and my music teacher for being so patience with me. You know who you are..... Lol
I think at this juncture, the only thing that is dragging me down is my job. I'm really having a very tough time trying to adapt to the nature of the job. I worked till 7 plus or 8 everyday and yet i'm not able to catch up on time. After 3 months, I'm still doing silly mistakes and I'm still as blur as sotong in my day to day task. I'm very dependent on my senior and my manager to get things moving. To make matter worse, this job requires me to proactively engage and reach out to people and convince them to change. This is so not my true nature. With all this combined, it is making me feel so incompetent and useless by the end of each day. I hate this feeling and it is hurting my self esteem and confidence pretty bad. I don't know why it's so difficult to get things right, perhaps this is way too out of my league. Before I started this job, I knew for a fact I'm not a good match for this role. But I was desperate to leave my previous job, so I decided to take up this challenge blindly. 3 months down the road, I'm questioning myself, why didn't I considered all the possible consequences before deciding.
Anyways, what was done cannot be undone now. I will just have to look forward and move on. I think I wanna go for a nice dessert to cheer myself up. Or maybe I will catch a movie since the rain has stopped. Or maybe I will stock up some junk food and watch some movies at home tonight. Till then......sayonara for now.....
I will be back for more whining sessions.... Lol.
Stay tune...
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