Sick season...

Lately a lot of people were down with flu, cough, fever and etc. That is inclusive of my partner with his on-off high fever for the past 1 week, a couple of my colleagues and my best 'sistar'. For me, I have been trying to suppress my fever cum flu from surfacing but no matter how hard I tried, it managed to find his way out. Yesterday my cough started and I had some low grade fever. Took some panadol and cough mixture and I slept like a pig.

In terms of job, finally my boss dragged me aside and asked me what's the reason behind my resignation. Told her 2 main contributing factors - I'm not happy with what I am currently doing and the compensation package that I am getting today does not match with the workload that I'm managing.

I guess by formality, she tried to persuade me to stay, promised me that she will propose for a promotion and salary adjustment next year (yes, not immediate...what a way to counter propose, right?). This part was pleasant to hear and that's more. she said I will still have to continue doing what I am doing in 2013. I'm like WTH....duhhh...didn't I just told her I'm not happy with my job? How can that be part of something that is suppose to convince me to stay? *sigh*

Frankly I have nothing against the nature of my current role. Doing program management is indeed challenging and very engaging. You feel very much in control of how you want to drive your program and the result is purely based on your contribution. It's like how you want to groom / mould your baby into an adult that you would like to see. The problem that I'm constantly facing has always been the lack of management direction and support. I'm so tired of getting a couple of outsider's support to help me clean up my own household mess (convince my own VP and his management team to execute something).

Yes, ironic kan? Your manager and the whole board of management are suppose to stand behind you and support you all the way. They are NOT suppose to be 'the obstacle' that you need to fight off with your extended team. Penat lagi geram....

Anyways, to cut story short, I told her I will reconsider (just not to let her down immediately) and will get back to her the following day.

If you ask me, am I having second thought about my new job? The answer is - NO WAY.....lol