Tired........

For the past weeks, I have been very busy with work. Ever since I took up the new role back in Aug, life have been very tough for me. I'm constantly tired and and I don't have the energy to do aything else. My friends have been quite concern about how "drained" and "worn out" I look, not to mention all the pimples that surface up has made me look really fatique or like what they say "chan" in cantonese.

Sigh....

Yesterday morning, when I start downloading my email, I was going thru one after another. One problem after another, misalignment of project timeline and demanding emails come from country managers within our organization start to populate in my inbox. I was drown with mixture of feelings - worries, frustration, stress, anger and God knows what else I am feeling.

At this point, my head start spinning and I have a very bad headache. I guess it is an indication that this is how much my mind can take. No matter how much I tried to focus / think, my mind is just not with me anymore. I was struggling to plan, focus or even think what I should do next. So I told myself, I guess this is it. I really need to rest. So I email my boss and informed her that I'm taking the rest of the afternoon off.

I was relief after sending that email and getting a confirmation from her that she is ok. I turn off my laptop, carry Tezel into the room and take a short nap. The rest of the day was mainly a ME day for me. I went to Offgamers and collect my box set : World of Warcraft - Mist of Pandaria

Hooray for me.... ^_^

Guess I really need that little bit of distraction to clear my head and I was glad that for the rest of the night, I spent my time watching movie and playing a couple of quest in that game. 

Before I sleep, I told myself, I will only give myself until end of the year to decide if I want to continue with this job or I should switch. Now may not be the best time, judging from the fact that my 13 month salary and year end bonus (hopefully there will be) will be out soon. But by end of the year, it would be officially 4 months I am doing this role and I should an idea if this is the way to go or I should take my own seperate way......

I hope that things will be better in the next 3 months......wish me luck...